my current state of health linked with religious neurosis ..

Just to speak in normal terms, I have yet be fulfilled religiously..
the center of my being is religious.. so I find it important to keep
up with moral hygiene. My friends come from places that I feel is not
right for me.. I believe in trust in this world so you can come to a
better conclusion.. That's why I went to bars by the way.. really,
because I could do more than just use a telephone to make contact.. To
be in the presence of a woman is definately therapy for me.. because
once the world runs through my veins I will never die.. as a matter of
fact, the world does run through my veins.. but on the side of being
vicarious to be yanked another direction by the religious training
that was set on me, that which I want to get over.. it's always best
to use a devil so you can escape from the hooks that ministers give
you..and to combat their words with bars is just another means of
breaking the chains..which are magnified in strength because they use
powerful words like 'love'..and yet they are jailers to me.. like I am
wrapped in chains where there is hope..give me a devil to save me is
not a new concept.. it's equivalent to being a rebel to find your way
through desire.. and in desire you move into others..but what's the
big deal anyways.. why does love have to be in essence perfect? If I
cut a person's lip to kiss them while they bleed, with consent..of
course I wouldn't do this, but you can coin it to be love.. I mean, if
a woman asks for this and you enjoy her company chances are 1000 years
in the future this would be a good thing.. Don't they have it for
sport anyways? Marilyn's fake interest brings to mind that Bonnie and
Clyde are lovers.. without being spotless, but it's love
nevertheless..but who cares really.. love is a word that is replaced
by hate as the natural human condition.. they say you're insulated in
a white world when you're conscience exceeds your ability to roam
around freely.. anyways, see you later.. i can't kick the habit..
might as will embrace it..

-sEung b. Kim