let the good times come -sEung b. Kim

I got in touch with Megan today on the phone.. It seems all I need
right now is a place of my own so I can claim it in my name. She is
busy taking care of her family. And she intends to meet me later on
at Kahala Mall so we can meet at Starbuck with another woman named
Sharon.. Both are nice women.. I picked up the nerve to call so they
set it for tomorrow evening. Later on, Stuart will be back at his old
place in Waikiki, where I'll be visiting him from time to time and
sleeping over on occasions.. His place gives me a new sensation or the
sensation of looking down from the top of Waikiki.. so it gives me a
sense of disorientation but with the benefit that it keeps my
curiousity up just by being there.. Later on, I'll go to Thurston and
contact the manager so I can live there.. The patience I developed
from living here has helped me alot.. soon I will be leaving for a new
place. I look at my life with optimism when there is a big change of
setting.. It's like a new sensation grows old, but if we did live
forever than it would be necessary that new sensations would be
forever coming one after the other.. Stuart lives in a great place in
the heart of Waikiki by Kuhio. The place is so secure that you need a
key to operate the elevator.. and it works on many levels through
technology.. there is a ground floor thrift store there and internet
booths downstairs as well. I used to enjoy salami when I was there
with Stuart.. it gave me a sense of being in a great big ocean riding
waves and sht to eat and enjoy the cool atmosphere.. I often
overlooked the whole area of Waikiki through the lanai area and the
sense of displacement is actually exciting.. it disorients me till I
feel there's something new taking place there every moment.. And we
got choices when it comes to eating..like Red Lobster, Sizzlers, and
as rudimentary as McDonald's..Scott, my counselor lives in Waikiki as
well.. and he drives all the way to CTP in vineyard.. means it's worth
it to live there even though you gotta drive so far off from the
place. I don't smoke anymore so I don't mind no smoking laws as it
applies to living spaces and their restrictions. So it isn't a matter
of all kinds of options being there, as long as I can have internet
access there and set up a flatscreen tv.. as for the game console I
was looking for, I'll postpone it until I get a job through Cora, who
is by the way helping me so much that I'm grateful.. but all I need is
either a job at KCC, a restaurant job, or a stay at home job.. any of
those I would commit myself to at this point.. but I gotta finish PSR
first..and its taking waay too long.. it requires that I skip the Fall
semester for therapy.. but it's worth it.. I could really use
it. .even if the answers to my problems require some amount of
effort.. I am sure they teach you how to be well and happy..and that's
primarily what I"m looking for.. anyways, I'll see you later..

-sEung b. Kim